Vince Tan

this is the most worse blog that i think i will type in..
i made a huge and careless mistake today..
this is the mistaken that no one will do it in their life...

as first, i tot a was a kind of joke that made from my friend but IT WAS NOT!!
i was shocked at that few second and my tear was starting flowing from my eyes...
the next thing in my mind was had to make a call with my senior...
asked her is tat any solution to settle my mistaken...

she told me that maybe make a call through the person who responsible will be better..
the person who received my call was a very nice person..
she tough me what should i do to settle it！！！
but the worse thing that make me collapse was i cant finish my dream!!!

she said there are two choice for me..
one is i can settle it in a easier way,
two is i have to repeat the same thing in my third years...AND CANT GRADUATE
when i put down my phone....
i cant control myself...my mind was float a lot of scary pictures...

i cant finish my dream, my dad will disappointed with me,
and he will kill me when he know that i cant do it...
my tear keep flowing and flowing....i called my friend
she keep comfort me it wouldn't be that kind of worse...

if i cant get what i want...she will help me to fight until the end!!
thousand of thank you to her...XIN..
After that, i start to complete my mission..stop crying!!
i done everything that the person who told me..
and I'm ready to fight with it..

people will learn from their mistaken,
very mistaken will have different implicit,
i learned a lot of thing from this mistake while it need a huge sacrifice,
I'm not scare of it just i cant believe myself that i have done such thing in my life..

i need time to help me pass through..
it was the most terrible and scary nightmare for me in my life....
i do a lot of effort and hardworking for it..
i even didn't try to think playing and relaxing!!
i do everything as well as i could...
but..............

I CANT MAKE IT...
i so wish i may restart everything again..but it cant and impossible...
all my hopes..effort...hard time....
GONE...just disappear and gently pass away..
all is my fault...i cant blame any thing any one or others...

now the only thing i can do is...
do everything that the person told me..
and just wait for the result that set from the destiny..

from now on..i even don scare for anything..
i will face it possibly and try all my best..
i think i would have the worse and mood less Chinese new year in my life..
i tried to cheer up and become the "normal" me but i cant...

there will always have an unrecoverable wound in my life....
i cant remove it and it will follow me forever and ever until i die...
i thought i was tough enough to settle it or face it but i was not!!
it's more hardest than i thought..i lose myself!!!
and i lose my confident....I'm the most stupid person and careless person in the world..

i will accept it but i need time..i will change it.
from now on, my heart and my mind will have an unclear able stain..
but anyway...at here,...thousand of thank you for those people who always beside and supported me!!!

thank you so much for your care and comfort!!
it means a lot for me..
although is just a single word but it gave me a warm and Refueling my looseness..
thank you so much...
especially..jia hui, wai hsun and catherine!!!
i really appreciate what u have done to me!!

and M1 course mate...thank you for accompany today...
it really make me felt better...
and also my G & G....

Hah…finally we meet the end of exam!!!
Wow….in this exam I learn a lot of things and new knowledge….
I done a few mistaken but I learned from that…

In this exam…I even didn’t feel stress from it…
I just feel that if u study u will know how to do the question!!!
So…..revision and study is quite fun for me…

Time won’t wait for any one or any thing…
It will go as fast as it could…
You must do or caught any thing that you want…
Don’t let go or pass through…
You will regret that you miss it or hope could restart again…

Many times I hope everything could restart again ….
But it can’t~~~~
so….before you feel regret, you have to do something…
Don’t give yourself any excuses for that…

Ow…in this year I only have two wishes…that is
My 21st birthday and the appearance of another person in my life….
Maybe I already use to be single so….it didn’t make me feel lonely or anything
But I wish that maybe have any accident crush on me…

May have another kind of different feeling in my college life…
Anyway…I really like my current live…
Do anything I want, read my lovely comic book, play cooking with my sis,
Go shopping, sing k, and travel with my family, gambling with my friend and family…
Hehehe…it was fun….

终极完美分析

> > 有很多的朋友，可是'看起来朋友很多，可是知心的没有几个'这句话很深刻的形容了双子。双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题。双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。比如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。关于自己的事，他几乎是不说的，就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。

> > 对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。

> > 双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。

> > 双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的，他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西.
> > 一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。

> > 双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于双子的花心，真的不想再说些什么了。解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。可是说起双子，就不得不提感情，双子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：双子最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。

> > 我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。其实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘了；

> > 要双子真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的'朋友'关系其实，很大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入，可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多快乐。

> > 每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，等到夜深人静的时候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。

> > 双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，我们很会伪装，很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！

horray...2010 finally is here!!
i forgotn missed my countdown for the coming of 2010..
i was slept at that moment...kao xiao neh!!!
hapi that finally it is the last week for our 2nd sem..
one more week...all of us will stuck in the HELLLL LIFE!!
*****EXAMINATION*****FOR ALL TARC STUDENT...

is quite exciting for me..
cos my time to play REVISON wif my G & G...
KEKEKEKe.....it was so fun..
we just had our "REVISION" at library today!!
finally i can feel and understand the joyful of ms chitra when she tot us in class!!!

another gd news for me was...
i graduated from co-co loh..(comtempary dance)
we got 3rd place in our competiton at our dance sport day...
and i got the 2nd best male dancer...(hapiiiiieee)
but feel a bit sad cos no more mr boni classes..
haiz....

but i had a great and awesome timee during my dance classes!!
im glad tat im one of the seven noble members..
cheerful is me, honest,elegant,ladieslike, daring, kindness and quite!!
while we ald graduated from dance but our relationship will keep it foever!!

2010 is quite a gd n lucky year for me..
the 1st day for me in 2010..
is the most warmful n hapiness memories for me!!!
i cooked breakfast wif my sis n we celebrate it together wif champaign n sushi..
we went shopping, bought a lot of thing, borrow 30 piece of comic book..
it was the best day for me..

the most interesting thing for me in this is...
my 21 years old birthday...
i cant wait for it!!
it means a lot for me...
i can do anything tat i want and finally i can enter casino legally!!!
hohohoho...^^

a lot of plan is waiting for me in this year n the day of my birthday!!
2nd is over and third sem is coming..
cant wait to start my third sem..
y????
cos third sem is the shorted sem for us and only three subject.
so sweet....ow..

and all my G&G member are in a relationship now!!
so hapi for tat but except me!!! y?? i also dunnno aybe the destiny is not here yet!!1
anyway..wish all them always hapi n sweet!!!
okie...stop here..
blog again when finish my examination!!!
tutu...love yah...